Positive Thinking

So.  During this ICLW week, I have enjoyed making comments on everyone’s blogs.  It’s nice to live outside myself for a while and read about the lives of others.  But.  Making comments has it’s drawbacks it seems. 
I am a big believer in thinking positive.  But, I will be the first to admit that it doesn’t always [...]

Family matters.

Lord knows that I love my family.  Love them to death.  But honestly, I will be so glad when they all just go away.  I miss my quiet house, I miss having my TV all to myself and not always tuned in to ESPN s courtesy of my father and brother.  I hate having to clean [...]

Irony

So, my house is clean, and family should be arriving shortly.  Let the madness begin. 
I went for a pre-interview for a job with benefits today.  Since C-Dub got laid off, I have been scrambling trying to find a full time job with insurance.  It’s hard out there, even for a nurse!  Well, the staffing agency [...]

Oh, I forgot……

Oh, I forgot! For any IComLeavWe people, a little background!
I am 32, have been married for 3 years.  We have been TTC #1 since September/October 2007.  Finally got my BFP in October when I was supposed be taking a break for the month.  I noticed some spotting the Monday before Thanksgiving.  On that Wednesday, there [...]

IComLeavWe!

I love IComLeavWe!!!! Thank you so much for all the comments and positive thoughts!  I have enjoyed reading everyone’s blogs and it is wonderful to have such support from this wonderful community of women!  I can’t wait to get to know everyone better! 
As for me.  I am doing better today.  C-Dub and I had what [...]

Normal

So I had my 2 week followup appointment today.  Everything seems to be “back to normal.”  Whatever “normal” is.   My bleeding has basically slowed, gone bye bye, just some occasional spotting.  Dr K tried his best to reassure me that this was probably just a fluke.  That everything was OK and that since I had [...]

Self inflicted torture and questions.

Soooo.  I don’t know why I torture myself.  But anyway, I was curious. 
I took a pregnancy test today. 
Of course it was positive.  Still. Almost 2 weeks after the D&C. Hmmmm.
Should I be worried?  It wasn’t a faint positive either.  It was a positive positive.  
Soooo, the HCG is still running strong in my system.  I was curious [...]

It’s the most wonderful time of the year……..

Christmas is next week!!!!!
OMG! I love Christmas.  Love it love it love it!  I am the one who can’t wait to have my Christmas tree up the day after thanksgiving. I am the one who religiously plays Christmas music every day until Christmas.  I shop carefully for gifts.  I can’t wait to be with family [...]

A new day.

Friday, I made C-Dub cry. 
I admit that I have been self absorbed these last few weeks.  It’s been all about me me me.  I thought, no I expected C-Dub to support me and understand and that was that.  But I never really considered him beyond that.  That  makes me a bad wife I am sure, [...]

What more can I say?

So.
I am……………unsure of what to say.
I was doing fine, then suddenly, I started bleeding much more heavily and it just hit me.
I am no longer pregnant.
I keep trying to move on, to “get over it.”  But I seem to keep getting smacked upside the head with it.
I work in freakin Labor and Delivery.  My patient [...]