trials of a strange cycle.

I am trying to not go crazy here.
So after I POAS and got a BFN, I noticed lots of AF like cramping and finally, I felt like AF had started.
Rushed to the bathroom, and placed a pad.  But nothing.  But with the cramping, I wasn’t taking any chances.
But all day, ever time I went to [...]

POAS MANIA!!!!!

Today, I made a horrible horrible discovery at work. 
There are pregnancy tests there.
Hundreds. By the box full.
Do you understand?
I could get there early and POAS ad nauseum if I wish.
WITHOUT HAVING TO PAY FOR THEM!!!!!!!OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!!!
I don’t know  weather to chortle with glee or shake my fists at the sky.
To pee or not [...]

Ok, so today is the beginning of the 1WW.  My temps shot way up this morning.  Very weird.  Just one more reason to obsessively stalk my own chart.  I told one of my patients today(as she lay on the table after her IUI) to visualize the sperm racing to meet the egg.  I am trying [...]

7day post O

OK.  So I joined Weight Watchers today.  The not pregnant, pregnant looking body has got to go.
MOVING ON!
In the one week wait here, and I must say I am having the worst pre AF cramps I have ever had in my life!  What I am feeling is what I usually get the first day ONLY [...]

Ramblings.

OK two things.
1.  Yesterday, one of my co-workers(who obviously has not been keeping up on unit gossip) smiled and said”Girl, you popping out! How many weeks are you now?”  Okay.  DAMN. 
2.  A friend who I had not seen in a while(who also heard through the grapevine that I was pregnant) accosted me today saying, “Congratulations, [...]

IPS? RPS? Or is it all in my head?

Sooooo.   Here I am, post O day nine, and my nipples are on FIRE!!!!  I mean, I have never, ever ever in my life been this uncomfortable.  I mean, I have always been kind of perky( excuse me if that was TMI).  But this is ridiculous! IPS?  RPS? 
On the other hand, my face is breaking [...]

Down and out……….

I think I’m out.  My temps have been plunging for the last few days.  Strangely, while I feel disappointed, I don’t feel that crushing sadness that I felt last month.  I am even kind of happy because I need to make some career changes and being pregnant right now would put a quick stop to [...]

Post O day 10

So my temps went down this am.  They have been going down steadily since about Friday I think.  It’s POD10. Hmmm.  I think AF is going to show soon.  What else is new?

a weekend away

Well, this weekend, I drove down to see my Mommy, her birthday is tomorrow.  She’s going to be 61!  Anyway, it was good to get away and chill with family.  My parents(who love any excuse to have a party) were having a simple just because barbecue.  Lots of cousins and stuff were there and I [...]

POAS?

Sooo, I went out and bought a couple of pregnancy tests.  And not the cheap ones either.  I got a digital Clearblue easy.  I don’t want to have to guess about is there a line or not.  I want the damn thing to say Pregnant or not pregnant. 
But why am I torturing myself by just having [...]