Exactly one year ago today, on November 26, 2008, I lost my first pregnancy, my first chance to be a Mommy. 
I was devastated, disillusioned, convinced that God and the world was against me.
What a difference a year makes.
Today, I gave birth to a beautiful wonderful blessing, and became a Mommy.
I am in awe, I am [...]

I’m just really trying to understand

OK, I am 25 weeks pregnant, and I work at an IVF clinic.  So yes, daily, I see women who are struggling with infertility, recurrent losses, failed cycles, and a host of other problems.  I understand that having a pregnant nurse can be hard.  That’s why I never mention it, I always have a smile, [...]

Evening thoughts

Sometimes, I think being a nurse( working in Labor and Delivery and in a RE’s office has forever skewed my view on life/pregnancy. 
Even though I have been in L&D for the last 10 years and have seen just how wrong things can go, I never thought of it in terms of  me.   I never thought [...]

I really have to stop reading the message boards.  There are a ton of posts on there that talk about how they “just lost” the baby at 9 weeks, 10 weeks, 12 weeks……
Not really good for me right now.
I am going on hiatus, I am sorry to say.  Mentally, I can’t take it right now.
2 [...]

late night ramblings

I was just having a moment reading a post by Baby Smiling.  Why do infertiles/women who have had trouble staying or getting pregnant, feel so guilty when we do?  Why do we feel guilty for complaining about feeling bad?  I try to be so grateful for every pregnancy symptom reminding myself that they all mean that [...]

Post Mortem.

I am so glad I am not going to be working in L&D for a while.
My patient last night was 18 weeks.  Due two days before I was.  Her water broke.  After a sono discovered the baby was deceased, she and the doctor decided to induce labor.
She kept asking why?  Was it something she had done? [...]

RANTING……other people’s pregnancies…….Again…..

You know that MD I was talking about a few days ago?  The one who bought the donuts and pizza at work?  Well, the MD also happens to be a good friend of mine.  Well, the heifer is pregnant.   And not only is she pregnant, but she is 18 weeks pregnant. Do you know what [...]

CD3

Today at work, I had the pleasure of taking care of my friend while she was being induced to have her baby.  This is the same friend whose baby shower I went to the day after my D&C.  She had 2 miscarriages and is finally having a baby.  I wish I could say that I [...]

Family matters.

Lord knows that I love my family.  Love them to death.  But honestly, I will be so glad when they all just go away.  I miss my quiet house, I miss having my TV all to myself and not always tuned in to ESPN s courtesy of my father and brother.  I hate having to clean [...]

IComLeavWe!

I love IComLeavWe!!!! Thank you so much for all the comments and positive thoughts!  I have enjoyed reading everyone’s blogs and it is wonderful to have such support from this wonderful community of women!  I can’t wait to get to know everyone better! 
As for me.  I am doing better today.  C-Dub and I had what [...]