The Countdown starts…….

Today, I am pregnant. 
I am pregnant today.
Even though I am saying and believing in my mantra, I still took another pregnancy test this morning at work.  It helps that I work in a Doctor’s office and that there are boxes and boxes of them. I took one yesterday and Saturday too.  I am obsessively POAS I know.  [...]

I have no words

You know, I’m trying to put things into perspective here. 
Today was a bad day. 
I dreamed this morning that I was holding my baby in my arms.  I woke up, quietly cried in the bathroom, peed on a stick, saw the negative and tried to move on.  My “trainers” at work were both missing in action.  [...]

POAS MANIA!!!!!

Today, I made a horrible horrible discovery at work. 
There are pregnancy tests there.
Hundreds. By the box full.
Do you understand?
I could get there early and POAS ad nauseum if I wish.
WITHOUT HAVING TO PAY FOR THEM!!!!!!!OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!!!
I don’t know  weather to chortle with glee or shake my fists at the sky.
To pee or not [...]

Other people’s pregnancies

Sooooo.  Sooooo.  My cousin S, who is the youngest in my family at 23, called me today for some advice.  I am a nurse after all, and a Labor and Delivery one at that.  Now, S called me to tell me that she was late…..with her period……….
She took a cheap pregnancy test, and got a faint [...]

POAS?

Sooo, I went out and bought a couple of pregnancy tests.  And not the cheap ones either.  I got a digital Clearblue easy.  I don’t want to have to guess about is there a line or not.  I want the damn thing to say Pregnant or not pregnant. 
But why am I torturing myself by just having [...]