I wanna thank God, Baby Jesus, Clearblue easy, C-Dub……..

I am walking around in a daze.
C-Dub has been doing fine.  We couldn’t get in any earlier for our appointment, so it will have to be next week.  He seems to have had a load lifted off of him, just by telling me.  We’ve been praying and taking  it one day at a time, and it’s been [...]

2 am Wake Up Call

I thought things couldn’t get much worse.
I was wrong.
I don’t think I’ll be blogging much for a while.
C-Dub needs all of my attention.
Right under my nose, he’s been going down hill.  Right under my nose.
Last night, he told me that he had thought about killing himself that day.
Killing himself.
He tells me this at 2am.  After he [...]

Weekend observations.

So……..
I go to work today, working at the hospital for an odd weekend shift.  (Still need that extra money you know).  So, I get there, do a delivery, chill.  I’m doing all right.  Get another patient.  Chill.  Deliver( and I do mean deliver, literally.  The doctor didn’t make it. ) someone else’s patient.  Then, I get [...]

sex anyone?

I’ve been finding that it is hard to turn off TTC.  I want to. Really.  But sometimes it seems easier said than done.  I remember that last year at this time after TTC for 6 months, I took a break.  it was easy not to temp, not to stare at the toilet paper and not [...]

regulation or big brother?

just some information anyone undergoing IVF with or without egg donation needs to know.  And anyone doing egg preservation
The Georgia Senate Health &Human Services Committee will hold a hearing on two bills of concern; SB 169 and SB204.
SB 169 would codify a limit on the number of embryos transferred, and ban the fertilization of any [...]

Day 2 of the diet:
Yeah.  OK.  I did well until dinner.  Damn C-Dub!!!
Didn’t go to the gym this morning because I couldn’t get out of bed this morning due to middle of the night nookie.
Speaking of which:
Sex last night? Check.  Did I enjoy it?  Maybe I would have if I could have focused on enjoying [...]

a new day

Soooooo. My period finally started on Thursday afternoon.  What a relief.  I think I’m going to stay away from that progesterone cream. 
In a moment of clarity(an epiphany if you will) I realized that TTC is messing with my peace of mind.  Badly.  Really bad.  My sanity is at stake here.
I talked to C-Dub about it.  [...]

You know, I’m trying to put things into perspective here. 
Today was a bad day. 
I dreamed this morning that I was holding my baby in my arms.  I woke up, quietly cried in the bathroom, peed on a stick, saw the negative and tried to move on.  My “trainers” at work were both missing in action.  [...]

trials of a strange cycle.

I am trying to not go crazy here.
So after I POAS and got a BFN, I noticed lots of AF like cramping and finally, I felt like AF had started.
Rushed to the bathroom, and placed a pad.  But nothing.  But with the cramping, I wasn’t taking any chances.
But all day, ever time I went to [...]

10DPO

So of course, I couldn’t resist today.  The temps had gone down yesterday, only to shoot back up this morning. 
BFN of course.
I just couldn’t help myself.
But on the bright side, fist sign of a pregnancy symptom: my nipples are HUGE! Now that ’s just weird.